Why do I feel this way?
The urge to fall in love with someone.
The urge of wanting to taste the happiness the other person has to offer.
The urge of gaining strength through trials in love.
Why do I sound so desperate?
I used to not care about these kinds of things.
Why am I now?
Is it possible to fall in love with someone you've never met?
Someone who is so different.
Like heaven and earth.
Two worlds apart.
Not of the same beliefs.
Not of the same background.
Not of the same culture.
Is it possible to fall in love with this kind of person?
Am I being delusional?
Let me admit something, I do feel empty.
Blame me for rejecting every guy that likes me.
"You can't force love."
That's what he said.
Those magical words of his.
Stays in my head.
Although it's almost 5 years.
Forgive, but don't forget.
The urge to fall in love but is afraid.
Afraid of broken promises.
Afraid of false hopes.
Afraid of being left all alone.
Afraid of falling in love.
Afraid of letting go.
Afraid of not be able to let go.
Don't get me wrong.
I do want to fall in love.
But it's not easy for me to fall in love with someone.
It's hard.
Those petty tactics and words,
They don't work on me.
Save them for someone else.
All in all, the urge of falling in love is there,
But it's hard for me to fall in love with someone.
But I already am.
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Optimistic
Alright so for the past few days I have been busy watching videos on YouTube that I find quite beneficial for me. I watched tips on efficient study, some hijab styles, skin care routine and of course some sick videos on exercising. For the past few months, I have been living in a state where I find everything annoys me, everything seem just not right, so out of place and one day it got me thinking, where did I went wrong? Well basically I think I'm just being negative towards everything. The results? I get emotional and I was devastated. I felt like my friends left me and etc but hey things happen right? So I just wanna share it right here since they're basically my thoughts that I don't voice out orally.
Alright so first things first. Honestly, being optimistic is such an effective way to reduce stress and the tension that you feel. Idk, maybe in most of the circumstances. It's totally okay to give it a shot. Truth to be told, I was never an optimistic person, more like the normal girl who over thinks everything and ends up feeling miserable. When I was in my foundation year, I always thought that it was hard and my peers are giving me a hard time. Well I learnt from my mistakes. Sometimes, positive thinking is just what it takes to be someone better emotionally and also mentally. What is life without some ups and downs? Positive thinking and being optimistic are important for us to stay on track.
Back in school, I had a fight with my friend (again, things happen, right?) and now I regret it. It's just because of that one immature, stupid fight we became distant. I hate it. We were supposed to be friends until now but I did apologize to her before I graduated but yeah, we still have some distance between us. I miss her. So, lets cut to the chase. No one can be happy if they treat others in a bad way (including yourself) because they're just like us. They have feelings and I know it's hard to forgive someone (especially if they did something really bad to us) but it's worth a shot I tell ya. Forgive, but never forget.
This might be a little bit sudden to say this but I have come to a point where I think I need to give myself a makeover. Not a 100% of course hmm lets put it this way: Improvise. I feel like changing the way I dress just to feel like a new person LOL I even got a haircut and boy it felt wonderful! So yea, I watched some hijab tutorials on YouTube. It was worth a watch. That Youtuber demonstrated some pretty ways yeah oh and I love Michelle Phan!
To feel better physically, of course I gotta get up and get sweaty. I used to hate exercising but yah know I wanna have a toned body so gotta work for it. But I'm still struggling though since it's Ramadhan. You can look at Blogilates' channel, she is an amazing person I love her vids! She's so optimistic and full of energy and plus she has a grrreatt body! It's to die for like srsly.
Gotta get some sleeeeeep! It's 3.23 AM and I gotta wake up for Sahur :) I know this post might be dull and boring but hey, they're just my thoughts :)
Alright so first things first. Honestly, being optimistic is such an effective way to reduce stress and the tension that you feel. Idk, maybe in most of the circumstances. It's totally okay to give it a shot. Truth to be told, I was never an optimistic person, more like the normal girl who over thinks everything and ends up feeling miserable. When I was in my foundation year, I always thought that it was hard and my peers are giving me a hard time. Well I learnt from my mistakes. Sometimes, positive thinking is just what it takes to be someone better emotionally and also mentally. What is life without some ups and downs? Positive thinking and being optimistic are important for us to stay on track.
Back in school, I had a fight with my friend (again, things happen, right?) and now I regret it. It's just because of that one immature, stupid fight we became distant. I hate it. We were supposed to be friends until now but I did apologize to her before I graduated but yeah, we still have some distance between us. I miss her. So, lets cut to the chase. No one can be happy if they treat others in a bad way (including yourself) because they're just like us. They have feelings and I know it's hard to forgive someone (especially if they did something really bad to us) but it's worth a shot I tell ya. Forgive, but never forget.
This might be a little bit sudden to say this but I have come to a point where I think I need to give myself a makeover. Not a 100% of course hmm lets put it this way: Improvise. I feel like changing the way I dress just to feel like a new person LOL I even got a haircut and boy it felt wonderful! So yea, I watched some hijab tutorials on YouTube. It was worth a watch. That Youtuber demonstrated some pretty ways yeah oh and I love Michelle Phan!
To feel better physically, of course I gotta get up and get sweaty. I used to hate exercising but yah know I wanna have a toned body so gotta work for it. But I'm still struggling though since it's Ramadhan. You can look at Blogilates' channel, she is an amazing person I love her vids! She's so optimistic and full of energy and plus she has a grrreatt body! It's to die for like srsly.
Gotta get some sleeeeeep! It's 3.23 AM and I gotta wake up for Sahur :) I know this post might be dull and boring but hey, they're just my thoughts :)
Thursday, June 19, 2014
TESL UKM Degree Interview: D-DAY!
Alright I had my TESL interview yesterday at UKM and truth to be told I was feeling a little bit nervous when it's almost my turn. I kept on texting my sister asking how should I say things and tips and all she said was to be confident, smile and have faith in God. Alright to be honest, those of you who are going for this interview should be confident, smile, speak fluently and also have faith in God.
I was the 3rd last to be interviewed so I had to wait outside and it was super hot. I was interviewed for like 7 minutes because the lecturers took too much time interviewing those before me so yeah I got the hard questions. The questions were the basics, like:
1) Introduce yourself.
2) Is UKM your first choice in UPU?
3) Why do you choose UKM instead of pursuing your TESL degree in UITM since you completed your foundation there?
And...they also asked me to speak in BM because they just want to hear it. I didn't expect them to ask those questions but things happen. So, prepare urself! The questions were:
1) Apa pendapat awak tentang memartabatkan bahasa melayu dan memperkasakan bahasa inggeris?
2) Kenapa awak rasa bahasa melayu perlu dimartabatkan? Bahasa inggeris pun penting juga.
3) Kenapa bahasa melayu dijadikan bahasa rasmi negara kita sedangkan negara kita ada 3 bangsa?
Alright so to those of you lucky people who are selected to go for this interview, don't be afraid. The interviewers will be your lecturers if you pass the interview. Oh not to forget, some of them might ask you to teach anything you want, which is basically in English. You can teach those simple topics such as the usage of who, whom, and whose if you want to teach Grammar. You can also teach a short poem, my advice is to teach the poems that you have learnt in school. Good luck!
I was the 3rd last to be interviewed so I had to wait outside and it was super hot. I was interviewed for like 7 minutes because the lecturers took too much time interviewing those before me so yeah I got the hard questions. The questions were the basics, like:
1) Introduce yourself.
2) Is UKM your first choice in UPU?
3) Why do you choose UKM instead of pursuing your TESL degree in UITM since you completed your foundation there?
And...they also asked me to speak in BM because they just want to hear it. I didn't expect them to ask those questions but things happen. So, prepare urself! The questions were:
1) Apa pendapat awak tentang memartabatkan bahasa melayu dan memperkasakan bahasa inggeris?
2) Kenapa awak rasa bahasa melayu perlu dimartabatkan? Bahasa inggeris pun penting juga.
3) Kenapa bahasa melayu dijadikan bahasa rasmi negara kita sedangkan negara kita ada 3 bangsa?
Alright so to those of you lucky people who are selected to go for this interview, don't be afraid. The interviewers will be your lecturers if you pass the interview. Oh not to forget, some of them might ask you to teach anything you want, which is basically in English. You can teach those simple topics such as the usage of who, whom, and whose if you want to teach Grammar. You can also teach a short poem, my advice is to teach the poems that you have learnt in school. Good luck!
Friday, June 13, 2014
TESL UKM Degree Interview
Well I managed to get the interview at UKM this Tuesday. Since my foundation mini transcript and my muet slip haven't arrived yet, I'm feeling anxious. Well yeah those two items are like so important for me to bring along for the interview. Of course 3 of my friends who managed to get the interview are nervous about it, so am I. So here are the things that I did to prepare myself.
1) I literally Google-d about the names of ministers in education.
2) I Google-d about what the interview will be like but mostly the results appeared are for foundation interview
3) I Google-d about the latest news in education such as education issues nowadays, etc.
4) Read a novel aloud so that you can speak clearly and to avoid stuttering.
5) Prepare myself for the mock teaching. Maybe I'll do literature, a poem.
6) Brace myself, have hope and pray to God for the best.
Honestly, during my foundation year it had never occur to me that I wanted to further my studies in TESL because my sister told me that TESL is a very challenging programme and etc. but come to think of it, there is nothing absolutely easy in learning. Well if I don't apply for TESL what should I apply for? English is my strong point, even my English teacher said so. It's only 4 days left before the interview yay! I was so happy that I got this interview because it is all that I have ever wanted for after I send my upu application. Alright, toodles!
1) I literally Google-d about the names of ministers in education.
2) I Google-d about what the interview will be like but mostly the results appeared are for foundation interview
3) I Google-d about the latest news in education such as education issues nowadays, etc.
4) Read a novel aloud so that you can speak clearly and to avoid stuttering.
5) Prepare myself for the mock teaching. Maybe I'll do literature, a poem.
6) Brace myself, have hope and pray to God for the best.
Honestly, during my foundation year it had never occur to me that I wanted to further my studies in TESL because my sister told me that TESL is a very challenging programme and etc. but come to think of it, there is nothing absolutely easy in learning. Well if I don't apply for TESL what should I apply for? English is my strong point, even my English teacher said so. It's only 4 days left before the interview yay! I was so happy that I got this interview because it is all that I have ever wanted for after I send my upu application. Alright, toodles!
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