A Thousand Miles

Why do I feel this way?
The urge to fall in love with someone.
The urge of wanting to taste the happiness the other person has to offer.
The urge of gaining strength through trials in love.
Why do I sound so desperate?

I used to not care about these kinds of things.
Why am I now?

Is it possible to fall in love with someone you've never met?
Someone who is so different.
Like heaven and earth.
Two worlds apart.
Not of the same beliefs.
Not of the same background.
Not of the same culture.

Is it possible to fall in love with this kind of person?
Am I being delusional?

Let me admit something, I do feel empty.
Blame me for rejecting every guy that likes me.
"You can't force love."
That's what he said.

Those magical words of his.
Stays in my head.
Although it's almost 5 years.
Forgive, but don't forget.

The urge to fall in love but is afraid.
Afraid of broken promises.
Afraid of false hopes.
Afraid of being left all alone.
Afraid of falling in love.
Afraid of letting go.
Afraid of not be able to let go.

Don't get me wrong.
I do want to fall in love.
But it's not easy for me to fall in love with someone.
It's hard.

Those petty tactics and words,
They don't work on me.
Save them for someone else.

All in all, the urge of falling in love is there,
But it's hard for me to fall in love with someone.
But I already am.